Let me go?

There's a time that i seriously think to give up, leave everything on my live
Why everything is so hurting?
I close my eyes and ears
Shut all my feeling
Let the tears falling
Alone in my dark silence
Again and again
My mental state is seriously broke, i guess?
Expecting is killing no matter what
What you hear and what you see now become nonsense
Its not about concern
Because you give a lot of caring, it let hurt you
Its killing me
Slowly and intense
Should i say 'let me go?'

saya capek
saya lelah
pikiran saya sangatlah kacau
lebih kacau dari yang pernah kau pikirkan
saya tahu saya salah dengan menulis ini
tapi jujur
itu yang saya rasakan
saya tidak berharap ada yang tahu, hanya Allah saja yang tahu apa yang ada dipikiran saya
tapi saya ingin menumpahkannya, meski tidak mungkin untuk menumpahkan segalanya
karna hanya akan membuat semua orang membenci saya
saya benci
saya tertekan
maaf
saya ingin lari, sembunyi, menutup segalanya rapat-rapat
tapi saya tahu itu tidak mungkin
kecuali jalan terakhir dan semua orang pasti kecewa bila kulakukan
maaf
maaf
maaf
hanya itu yang bisa saya katakan.
(my self thought, 21092013)

" I used to believe in you alone and I was happy
But like a joke, I am left alone
You used to promise me with your pinky finger
But in the end

Nothing ever lasts forever
In the end, you changed
There is no reason, no sincerity
Take away such a thing as love
Tonight, I’ll be crooked

Leave me alone
I was alone anyway
I have no one, everything is meaningless
Take away the sugar-coated comfort
Tonight, I’ll be crooked

Will you not say anything for me tonight?
I didn’t know being alone would be this hard (I miss you)
Will you be my friend tonight?
On this good day, this beautiful day, this day where I miss you
Tonight, I’ll be crooked "